The last few months have been very emotionally difficult.  I have in a sense of the word lost close friends and family.  These are people who without a doubt I just knew would be in my corner through thick and thin.  But then reality hit me because when I need them the most they are nowhere to be found……  Everyone I talk to tells me not to take it personal but how am I suppose to take it??  This is my LIFE I am fighting for.  Everyone loves you and wants to be there for you until you truly need them and then they just disappear.  They find every excuse in the book to why they all of a sudden can’t or are not willing to help you.  (It’s because of this or because this came up or my Dr. said this could happen)  The part that hurts the most is that if the…